The love of God is greater far than tongue or pen could ever tell. It goes beyond the highest star and reaches to the lowest hell. 

I don’t have an outline for this one. It doesn’t really need one. This post isn’t about what we’re doing wrong and how we can fix it. I’m done with those for a while. Why? Because I never fixed it. It seemed like everyday on this blog I would present a problem that is common in our world today, and the solution was always something to the effect of: love God more. But, everyday I’d be back with another problem, and another.

I’m done with problems!

My grandfather used to say, “If money can fix it, it’s not a problem”. Well, it that’s true, I have very few problems in this life. But if the difficult things that beset me spiritually and habitually can be solved by knowing; loving; seeking God more, why are they still problems in my life?

Actually, they’re not… not anymore. That’s right, I beat them. Every single one of them. And not just the one’s that I saw as major problems either!

What! You mean there are things in our lives that we don’t see as problems, which keep us from a right relationship with God?!

YES! Yes! Yes! Yes, yes, yes…. Absolutely there are. (I just ruined my entire post readability right there). I’m currently awake and writing a blog post on my laptop. 2 things:

  1. Last year around this time I had no laptop whatsoever, it died on me, forcing me to get a new one, (which means money, which means problem).
  2. I’m up writing at 8:30, that means I at least had to get up at 8am. Last year around this time, that would’ve taken an act of God! (and it did…)

I didn’t see money as a problem until I didn’t have a laptop to work on anymore, (side note: my laptop is required for 110% of my work). I didn’t see my sleeping in as a problem until I started getting up early to seek God, read, study, and pray. If you’re still not getting this, 8am is about 4 hours earlier than I normally wake up! It’s a relatively big deal for me.

What I Want vs God

Not even versus what God wants, but versus God Himself. All our desires are pitted against God and His will for our life. Because until we let go of our conceptions, He can’t use us to the fullest extent. I wake up every morning far earlier than I once did. I spend whatever alone time I can with God while reading His word, speaking to Him, studying, and then this. The blog is my outlet to make some sort of mark on the world or impact on a single life, even if it’s mine. This is my mind’s depository and what I learn and what I feel ends up here.

But it’s not just to tell us what we’re doing wrong. The hope is that we take these lessons and apply them to our lives: learn and grow from them, and then build on that foundation. I finally get it. Sacrifice has taken over my life in an attempt to love God desperately, madly, truly.

As always, thanks for reading.

the anonymous novelist

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